It’s been a rough week. I’ve been sick and very, very dizzy for several days.
Dizzy is such an awful feeling. There seems to be nothing solid to stand on while the world is spinning around you. The least turn of your head or quick movement can send you reeling once again. You feel like you’re constantly in danger of throwing up or falling over. You close your eyes in hopes that things will settle down a bit, but it doesn’t seem to help for more than a fleeting moment. As soon as you open your eyes, the room is spinning again.
Sometimes we can feel like that in our emotional lives as well, especially when we’re dealing with addictive behaviors. It can be scary. The secrets, the lies, the shame—they’re all swirling around in a big jumble and, in the back of your mind, you wonder when and what is going to bring it all crashing down around you. At times there seems to be nothing solid to stand on in your life. You just want the chaos to stop . . . but it feels so out of control. Nothing you try seems to take it away for more than a fleeting moment.
We must come to grips with the idea that in our current state, we’re not going to be able to change things by ourselves. We need, desperately, to reach out to someone who can help steady us. We need someone who can walk alongside us until we can reach solid ground once again. It’s an embarrassing thought. We don’t want anyone to see us like this. But, it is that step of giving up and doing whatever it takes, that will help get us to the other side of this.
If your life is reeling today, muster all your courage, and admit to someone that your life is out of control. Even the thought of it may make you feel like throwing up, but it is truly the only way to start taking control of this tornado that keeps threatening to destroy your life.
“Instead, speaking the truth in love, we will grow to become in every respect the mature body of him who is the head, that is, Christ. From him the whole body, joined and held together by every supporting ligament, grows and builds itself up in love, as each part does its work.“—Ephesians 4:15-17 (NIV)
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